That's the Last Time I Pray for Courage

People say to be careful what you pray for. I have found it's true that when I'm praying for a Christlike attribute, it usually doesn't just decent upon me as the dews of heaven. Which means the Lord just isn't listening to the whole prayer. ( "... and please bless me with patience, but make it easy and make it quick.")

At my ripe old age of twenty-something, I'm still getting to know myself. And what I've learned about me lately is that I have oodles of fear and doodles of courage. ('Doodles' is the opposite of 'oodles'. Obviously.) So I've been praying for more courage; courage to talk to new people, make new friends, and get out of my comfort zone. 

Well the Lord answered me, and frankly after this, in my prayers I shall stick to two subjects: the weather and my health.

I got offered a job yesterday for a teacher position in the Canyons School District, to which I applied just on a whim during spring break. And when I say "whim" I mean it was the only job I applied for and I didn't even finish the application process of sending in letters of recommendation or even my resume because I got bored and decided it was too much work. But they called me, scheduled a phone interview (this school district is in the south Salt Lake area), and offered me a job when I went up to meet them in person this last Friday. 

Awesome, right?

Um, no.

You see, taking a job up north means I'll have to leave everything I'm familiar with here and I'll have to talk to new people, make new friends, and get out of my comfort zone. 

So once again, I don't think the Lord was completely listening to my prayers..."Father, help me to have courage, but don't make it too uncomfortable and don't even think about making me leave St. George."

So that may be the last time I pray for courage.